Billy Joel once sang "And so it goes.."

Sunday 02/05...4:20 AM.


To CW: Sara Bareilles - Gravity


Something about the Band of Horses sound. Music is life, not all good, some of it bad. Yet, that ability of  each song to carry us back to  an innocent memory. To take you back to a clean slate of pure thought. As I stare out my window, four floors up; I see the moon behind a sketchy grey & black sky, almost breathing. I don't know what it means to be right some times, if at all really.  I just know that life is not lived if you live in regret. Life is not exactly about knowing where you are going, but it is about enjoying where you are because I have realized that for too long I've worried about chasing perfection. But how foolish, I've missed out on love before because I was trying to be perfect. I don't know, i guess it was God's will because it happened; but sometimes as a believer you question your faith; which means you need to speak to God more and renew your spirit. & sometimes it takes believers to tell you that God is love, and that focusing on your perfection's will anchor you down and not be used for God's greatest of glories. It should never be about who you were, throw a bomb at that past and move on, shed your skin and keep your soul.  That's truth.


Some times when you lose a love, your mind races around the same graveled track. You think by running more and more, you'll tear up the pebbles under your feet and hit a new path a place far away from the pain. But that's not how it works, you can ignore love; and try to look up in the sky at night , knowing this world is huge. Yet your heart tells you there's a chance that love is looking right back up to that same sky. But the error is that is your memory, she's looking into another set of eyes. If another person moves on, your chasing a ghost; and you are meant for something more warm & real. Let it be, jump on a different track. Billy Joel once sang "And so it goes.." So leave.


The point is, sorrow and pain can happen when you're living in solitude; but fear and worry are worse than regret and sorrow because it prevents growth for your life. Never do it. Don't live like a ghost or a diary life bur choose to live like a new star...blowing up in new places in the fastest of energies. Don't question your heart, follow it. 


I have never had two months off of anything. From 2004-2009 I worked full-time or went to college full-time. I never sat back and said, what if. What if I don't chase the easy way out, what if I never put my hand in front of my life's bowling ball. What if when I released that ball 8 years ago I pointed it straight in thought but in reality it's completely off it's trajectory. The greatest thing in life is rejection, because rejection causes you to read life's lines, the real ones. It causes you to step away and and enjoy your own solitude to find out who you really are. No longer do you aim for being fake, you aim for being real because realness is what attracts your love, not some temporary lust. What if you die tomorrow, will you be known for settling, for staying, for not doing?  Lust is the void for loneliness, Love is the glue to your life. What if i needed to say, alright God let me take a step back from this momentum and get it in the right direction. Let me face my insecurities and a new place to find out my own vertigo. I think those steps mean getting out of the way of your biases, close-mindedness and living. I dont know how many dates I turned down, how many trips i said no to, how many drinks i didn't take; and all the while I am happy about who I am but what i want to be is more than anything.


The point of this entire rambling is this: shatter your thinking. If you need to take a road trip to the west coast and see the beach do it. If you don't shatter your thinking you're like an artist that doesn't change utensils. There is a reason sharpening a pencil felt so good each time you did it and began to write again. So I challenge any of you to shatter it. Keep your morality, keep your faith, keep your dignity, keep your soul, Keep God, but shatter your walls and find out what you're truly mean to do. We're ticking down everyday to our fate, life's short; if it's money pray for faith to not let monetary reasons stop you from dreaming.


Good luck,


Aaron 

Jesus, who have we become?

Deuteronomy 30:19 This day I call heaven and earth as witnesses against you that I have set before you life and death, blessings and curses. Now choose life...


First of all, "Hold up". Let us understand life.....our choice and the state of our generation. This country, our youth needs a wake up call in the spirit of the Lord. You've got Lil Wayne & Drake eating up the airwaves, "poppin" out jams about sex cars, money, and things of the world, life without salvation. What happened to 1950's America where Frank Sinatra sang about love?  No scratch that  what happened to.................................................love and honoring God's word over self.


This country is in the midst of a powerful crossroads, a media who dispels the existence of our God; and a youth taught to live on emotion over self-control.


There is a difference, and a reason God made love between two people; not multiple "pleasurable experiences". Now i wanna say that nobody is perfect, I too fall short of God's glory; but God expects more from each of us. How can we be teachers of faith or examples if we are mired in a funk, a hypocrisy?  He gives us all FREE WILL, to choose. We can choose to follow him, or choose to follow the world; but always know that our time here is short, and even if 85 years is considered "Long" it's nor guaranteed or very long compared to ETERNITY in heaven. Think of this, put your "85 years" up against
1,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000,000...keep adding zero's..


Think about that next time a kid talks cheap to you in lust, ask yourself "if this guy can talk about having sex with me, how is he going to be a good father to my kids; how in 5 years into marriage when we face stress be it financial or marital will he have the discipline to stand by me and not cheat on me if he didn't even have the discipline to respect me in words now. It's called red flags, character the understanding that a boy is a boy...a man a man; God made us all like minded but each of us has the choice of free will to choose  the will/discipline to be good, PURE.

It's not about turning a girl on, it's about LOVING someone; and doing what's right. I haven't always been perfect and I ask for God's forgiveness, and mercy; BUT at some point you will not feel a peace because you know the right way of doing things, the right way of falling in love, the real meaning of a honeymoon...


All im saying is stop around, look at the world around you; Star Gaze, look at Orion's belt and how it never changes only moves, and you can see it at anytime of the year millions of lightyears away, WHO ARE WE? compared to GOD and his awesome power! God spoke about the last days...the promiscuity, how man would become evil, the lack of faith in God among even believers, and most of all know that God loves you; whatever your sin, he is here for us through Jesus and if we accept Christ we are to be forgiven of our sins, to grow in faith and to have a peace like no other peace. If you think i'm nuts, well call God out on your own and have him prove to you his realness as he has done in my life, and understand that each time you fall in sin is not a time to waive a flag, it's a time to understand humility to our God, our true father; humble yourself as it says in scripture: and you know this, that in the day of temptation, pain, sorrow, joy, glee, heart-break, wonder, confusion, fear, anxiety, relief, joy, pain, hurt, sadness, love, rejection, conquer, timidness, anxiety, PEACE, that our lord, our God is the same God and same spirit that spoke to Moses, David, St. Timothy, Paul, and all the other great men of God yesterday, as he is today.


James 4:7-10 
7 So humble yourselves before God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. 8 Come close to God, and God will come close to you. Wash your hands, you sinners; purify your hearts, for your loyalty is divided between God and the world.


9 Let there be tears for what you have done. Let there be sorrow and deep grief. Let there be sadness instead of laughter, and gloom instead of joy. 10 Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor.


One of my favorite life songs for us as believers, Jared Andersons "Pleasing to you"


Sanctify me
Clean out my closet
Take away anything that is not pleasing to You

Purify me
Destroy all my anger
Wash away everything that is not pleasing to You

I will be white as snow
I will be pure as gold
Jesus my heart must know
I'm pleasing to You

I give my life, my all
Taking the cross I will follow
Jesus my heart must know
I'm pleasing to You

Sanctify me
You are the light to guide me
To the place where I am 
Only if pleasing to You

Purify me
I need your light inside me
So the darkness flees
I can be pleasing to You

So come make me white as snow
Lord make me pure as gold
Jesus my heart must know
I'm pleasing to You

I give my life, my all
Taking the cross I will follow
Jesus my heart must know
I'm pleasing to You

Jesus my heart must know
I'm pleasing You




God bless.




-Aaron